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This has been a rough week, month, year, two years……?
I remember many many years ago I was in a group thing where decisions needed to be made and there was a lot of arguing and in-fighting and it was just so completely draining. That was when I first realized a personality trait of mine and I remember it clearly because I wrote it down in my journal all those many years ago. I wrote that I felt like I was a sponge that sucked in all the emotions and energy from the room and that I wished that a big hand would just come and squeeze it all out.
Thankfully I have my art to help wring me out. And thankfully it is fall and the idea of letting go becomes apparent around us. In late August and September, many of the late blooming flowers drop their heads and let their seeds scatter. The leaves in the trees are starting to turn color and are starting to drift down to the ground.
In this moment, I am trying earnestly to learn from this season of letting go. I have been told many times over that if we hold on to what no longer serves us or is harming us, we wind up carrying an ever heavier load. I know this. Finding the balance though between caring about the world and not letting the overwhelm, well overwhelm, is difficult.
There is comfort too though in watching and learning from the seasons- nothing is static, life is birth, growth and decay, a continuous cycle.
“to live in this world
you must be able
to do three things
to love what is mortal;
to hold it
against your bones knowing
your own life depends on it;
and, when the time comes to let it go,
to let it go”
– Mary Oliver