endlessness, mixed media on birch, 5 3/4 x 8 3/4 inches
While I was working on this mixed media piece last Sunday, I was listening to NPR and there was this young girl talking. I caught her story in the middle so I don’t know what her name is or even how old. I’m thinking maybe 12 years old or younger. She was talking about her life and feeling like she just drifts by. Her voice was so clear and young, a little unsure, but still clear. I felt like her words could have been spoken by a 12 year old me. She said how she felt like if she had a good circle of friends then maybe she would stop drifting, then maybe she would feel anchored.
I felt that way then and still feel that way now at times. Less emphasis on the friends, and more wanting to be near my family. She went on to say that she loves to go to the beach. Not a sunny beach, but rather a gray and windy beach. (me too!) She liked to stand there and look out at the ocean because she “loved the endlessness of it all…”.
The photo that I used above was taken at Golden Gardens in Seattle last March. This park overlooks the Puget Sound and faces the peninsula. The trees are right on the beach. I remember when I took the photo and feeling in love with that spot. The grove of trees standing stoicly in front of the cold gray blue of the Sound. A feeling of endlessness on top of endlessless.
The little girl ended that sentence though by saying, “I love it, but at the same it kind of scares me. Like I can get lost in it”. I understand that feeling. I searched for an audio recording of the segment, but couldn’t find it. I would love to hear it from the beginning.